Where did my baby go? Where can I find her? Oh, I know! I may not see her anymore, but I know she is there. She is there when she cuddles up to me at night with her head between my neck and my shoulder. She is there when she scrapes her knee or her tummy hurts and she calls for mommy. She shows up when the thunder is loud and the rain is hard and jumps into my arms. Sometimes, my heart aches because I want another baby but I can't imagine having to share my time with anyone else. I know that Reagan needs me but I need her too.
I told my Mom tonight that my goal is for her to be sleeping in HER bed in HER room by May when she turns 4. I am not so sure about that. Not because of her, but because of me.